Thanks for the thoughtful reply! That sounds cheesy, but this comment really did make me think, and I suspect I will continue thinking about it for quite a while. Particularly this:
a very insightful and well educated anxious person who was not able to work or take proper care of herself.
rings true for me (modulo pronoun), except that I've always been able to work, but I've also frequently been amazed at my ability to continue to find jobs and not get fired, given how much of the time I spend in a state where having to think or make a choice, no matter how small, immediately tells my brain "something bad is going to happen and you can stave it off by reloading Facebook 17 times". If I do have some form of PTSD (and I've been told there's no such thing as "minor PTSD", though idk if that's true) then it's not just due to dealing with cissexism or with wrong people on the Internet, but with my early life, but that's stuff I don't have the energy to explain right now. Suffice it to say, it's an "It wasn't that bad... but I know you're not supposed to compare and contrast your experience with that of more-traumatized friends... but no really, it wasn't that bad... but why do I feel like I have to minimize it?" sort of thing. Which I gather is fairly common.
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Date: 2012-05-24 02:08 am (UTC)a very insightful and well educated anxious person who was not able to work or take proper care of herself.
rings true for me (modulo pronoun), except that I've always been able to work, but I've also frequently been amazed at my ability to continue to find jobs and not get fired, given how much of the time I spend in a state where having to think or make a choice, no matter how small, immediately tells my brain "something bad is going to happen and you can stave it off by reloading Facebook 17 times". If I do have some form of PTSD (and I've been told there's no such thing as "minor PTSD", though idk if that's true) then it's not just due to dealing with cissexism or with wrong people on the Internet, but with my early life, but that's stuff I don't have the energy to explain right now. Suffice it to say, it's an "It wasn't that bad... but I know you're not supposed to compare and contrast your experience with that of more-traumatized friends... but no really, it wasn't that bad... but why do I feel like I have to minimize it?" sort of thing. Which I gather is fairly common.