Thank you so much for sharing this. I have actually never had a conversation with anyone about metoidioplasties before or even seen it discussed much - I haven't sought information out either, but it's something that's tickled the back of my mind for a while and it's really nice to read someone else's thoughts on it.
I don't know that I have specific questions but it's very possible that I might want to ask some in the future; this might be something I want to do someday? Maybe? Surgery is really intimidating for me and I haven't quite gotten to the point where I feel ready to tackle another one. But I would be very interested to hear about how surgery and the healing process go, if you want to share later on. And if I ever start considering it more seriously I may want to talk to you about your experiences if that's ok.

I'm really intrigued by the fact that you're going to do saline scrotal injections! I have been aware of saline inflation for several years now but didn't know that it was a part of preparing for scrotal implants. Huh.

I've tried using a strap-on to fuck a partner .... and I was super-conscious of having a strap-on on, and it basically had the opposite effect it's supposed to, of making me more aware of the way my body isn't where my brain needs it to be.

I'm not sure that I've quite given up on using strap-ons altogether, because my experience has been limited and I want to try it a few more times, but that's kind of what it feels like to me - I'm just more aware of what's *not* there, especially since there's no sensation during what my brain says should be a really intense experience. It's very jarring.