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That Trans Survey, part 6 of n
What is this, and why am I posting it?
Somewhat explicit personal sexual content behind the cut! You have been warned.
Has your libido or sexual orientation changed during your transition?
Unsurprisingly, my libido has increased a lot. Orgasms are a required part of my day, not an optional one. Masturbation is a need like food and water, not a pastime like reading and roller skating. I can no longer have multiple orgasms in quick succession, and my sexual thoughts have become more varied as well as more plentiful.
I was bisexual both before my transition and after, but I went from being almost exclusively interested in women to almost exclusively being interested in men.
Are there particular sexual acts that are comfortable or uncomfortable for you in your chosen gender?
I hate censoring myself, but this was the only survey question whose answer I didn't feel comfortable posting on the Internet. Here is a vaguer answer that I didn't submit with the survey, but that I am comfortable sharing.
The more time I spend seeing a male face in the mirror, it seems like the more my sexuality (which is mostly imaginative, given the amount of sex I've had in the past three years) drifts towards stereotypically-feminine sexuality -- which is to say, the kind of feminine sexuality that few actual women embody. Using a strap-on on somebody, for example, was all good fun when I thought of myself as a woman with some subversive traits. Now, I can't put one on and take myself seriously. I can get plowed like a cis man (or at least think about it), but I can't fuck someone like a cis man.
I'd settle for being able to fuck someone at all (not necessarily like a cis man), with a part of my body that has more nerve endings than fingers or a tongue.
But since I can't, better to (again, mostly in my imagination) be in the presence of masculinity, be masculine by virtue of my willingness to let a man take his pleasure from me; again, something that few actual women are very into.
What was it like for you growing up? Did you feel different from other children or teenagers or did you feel like you fit in? If you felt different, at what age did you notice differences and what were they? Were you aware that these differences had to do with your gender?
I interacted very little with other children and teenagers until I started taking college classes (when I was 14). But as far back as I can remember, I can always remember feeling different. In general I thought it was because I was smarter than the other kids, read more, knew bigger words, or because my mom wasn't born in the US and she and I both had accents. I never thought about whether the differences might have to do with my gender until I'd been a student at a women's college for several years.
Growing up, did your parents and family recognize your gender variance? How did they approach it?
Not at all; my mother still denies that I ever seemed like anything other than a typical little girl.
Growing up, did your schools and teachers recognize your gender variance? How did they approach it?
Not applicable, since I didn't attend school until college.
Do you have children? How have you navigated your relationship with your children and what advice would you give for other transgender parents?
I don't have children.
If you have children, how did you come to have these children (gave birth, partner gave birth, sperm donation, adoption)? Whether you have children or not, do you want children in the future? If so, have you thought about your reproductive capacity or your ability to have biological children as you have transitioned?
I would like to have children in the future, but I wouldn't do so unless I had a partner. I haven't ruled out the possibility of being a biological parent, but most likely I would only have kids by adopting them. I suspect that being pregnant is not an option for me given my age and the amount of time for which I've been on T, but psychologically I haven't let go of the idea. I had to think seriously about whether to give up my fertility when I went on T, but decided that being psychologically well-balanced and adopting a kid would be better than being depressed and giving birth -- and I haven't regretted that decision.
Somewhat explicit personal sexual content behind the cut! You have been warned.
Has your libido or sexual orientation changed during your transition?
Unsurprisingly, my libido has increased a lot. Orgasms are a required part of my day, not an optional one. Masturbation is a need like food and water, not a pastime like reading and roller skating. I can no longer have multiple orgasms in quick succession, and my sexual thoughts have become more varied as well as more plentiful.
I was bisexual both before my transition and after, but I went from being almost exclusively interested in women to almost exclusively being interested in men.
Are there particular sexual acts that are comfortable or uncomfortable for you in your chosen gender?
I hate censoring myself, but this was the only survey question whose answer I didn't feel comfortable posting on the Internet. Here is a vaguer answer that I didn't submit with the survey, but that I am comfortable sharing.
The more time I spend seeing a male face in the mirror, it seems like the more my sexuality (which is mostly imaginative, given the amount of sex I've had in the past three years) drifts towards stereotypically-feminine sexuality -- which is to say, the kind of feminine sexuality that few actual women embody. Using a strap-on on somebody, for example, was all good fun when I thought of myself as a woman with some subversive traits. Now, I can't put one on and take myself seriously. I can get plowed like a cis man (or at least think about it), but I can't fuck someone like a cis man.
I'd settle for being able to fuck someone at all (not necessarily like a cis man), with a part of my body that has more nerve endings than fingers or a tongue.
But since I can't, better to (again, mostly in my imagination) be in the presence of masculinity, be masculine by virtue of my willingness to let a man take his pleasure from me; again, something that few actual women are very into.
What was it like for you growing up? Did you feel different from other children or teenagers or did you feel like you fit in? If you felt different, at what age did you notice differences and what were they? Were you aware that these differences had to do with your gender?
I interacted very little with other children and teenagers until I started taking college classes (when I was 14). But as far back as I can remember, I can always remember feeling different. In general I thought it was because I was smarter than the other kids, read more, knew bigger words, or because my mom wasn't born in the US and she and I both had accents. I never thought about whether the differences might have to do with my gender until I'd been a student at a women's college for several years.
Growing up, did your parents and family recognize your gender variance? How did they approach it?
Not at all; my mother still denies that I ever seemed like anything other than a typical little girl.
Growing up, did your schools and teachers recognize your gender variance? How did they approach it?
Not applicable, since I didn't attend school until college.
Do you have children? How have you navigated your relationship with your children and what advice would you give for other transgender parents?
I don't have children.
If you have children, how did you come to have these children (gave birth, partner gave birth, sperm donation, adoption)? Whether you have children or not, do you want children in the future? If so, have you thought about your reproductive capacity or your ability to have biological children as you have transitioned?
I would like to have children in the future, but I wouldn't do so unless I had a partner. I haven't ruled out the possibility of being a biological parent, but most likely I would only have kids by adopting them. I suspect that being pregnant is not an option for me given my age and the amount of time for which I've been on T, but psychologically I haven't let go of the idea. I had to think seriously about whether to give up my fertility when I went on T, but decided that being psychologically well-balanced and adopting a kid would be better than being depressed and giving birth -- and I haven't regretted that decision.