uh huh

Aug. 24th, 2016 07:25 pm
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After my 2nd session of PT, I am still aggravated and thinking of quitting.

While she seemed a bit taken aback that I didn't like the reading, she did manage to roll with it. I said that it was too basic for me and that I have read better books about pain. I said that I did like the part about the body map.

She recommended I try an app in which the user practices Left/Right sorting of body parts; there is some evidence this supports correct functioning of the body map. I explained that I only have a PC, not a smart phone nor tablet. She didn't think this would be a problem.

So I look at the website for the app (which costs about 7 bucks for each body part featured)

And it says it's only available for Android and ioS. (Am I wrong about this? plz correct me if so!)



fuck PT.
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Earlier this month at PyCon AU, VM Brasseur gave this talk on maximizing the contributions from "drive-thru" participants in your open source project. Her thesis is that most of your contributors are going to report one bug, fix one thing, and move on, so it's in your best interest to set up your project so that these one-and-done contributors have a great experience: a process which is "easy to understand, easy to follow, and which makes it easy to contribute" will make new contributors successful, and more likely to return.

Meanwhile, the Firefox team's trying to increase the number of repeat contributors, in particular, people filing quality bugs. We know that a prompt reply to a first code contribution encourages that contributor to do more, and believe the same is true of bug filing: that quickly triaging incoming bugs will encourage those contributors to file more, and better bugs, making for a healthy QA process and a higher quality product.

For now, it's rare that the first few bugs someone files in Bugzilla are "high quality" bugs - clearly described, reproducible and actionable - which means they're more likely to stall, or be closed as invalid or incomplete, which in turn means that contributor is less likely file another.

In order to have more repeat contributors, we have to work on the "drive-thru" bug filer's experience that Brasseur describes in her talk, to make new contributors successful, and make them repeat quality bug filers. Here's some of the things we're doing:

  • Michael Hoye's asking new contributors about their bug-filing experience with a quick survey.
  • We're measuring contributor behavior in a dashboard, to find out how often contributors, new and old are filing bugs.
  • Hamilton Ulmer from the Data team is looking at an extract of bugs from Bugzilla to characterize good vs. bad bugs (that is bugs that stall, or get closed as invalid.)
  • The BMO and Firefox teams have been working on UI improvements to Bugzilla (Modal View and Readable Bug Statuses) to make it easier to file and follow up on bugs.

These steps don't guarantee success, but will guide us going forward. Thanks to Michael Hoye for review and comments.

hasty Worldcon notes

Aug. 23rd, 2016 10:37 am
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Several things I recommended during Worldcon just now:

I had a very good time at Worldcon and am recovering now.

On relating to art

Aug. 23rd, 2016 11:52 am
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I have very clear memories of my ten-year-old self being immensely, deeply unimpressed by Rothko and Mondrian. I was very angry about why this constituted "art"; my definition of art explicitly excluded square canvases painted a single colour.

My ten-year-old self is gently unimpressed every time I stop dead in front of a six-foot-square matte black canvas in an art gallery, wonderstruck, and go "hmm, yes, isn't it fascinating what's being done here, isn't this good."

I am nursing a theory that the main differences between me-then and me-now are:
  1. I'm no longer in a situation where my autism is actively decried, and have internalised that it's okay for particular colours or shapes to make me happy, just because, and (as a superset, really)
  2. I've started believing that it's okay for me to have and experience emotions full stop (and am sufficiently well medicated that I can and do).

Which means that, over the past few years, I've stopped interpreting modern and especially abstract art as, fundamentally, threats: I've stopped responding automatically with defensive suspicion and fury to forms of art that (crudely!) exist to make me feel things.

There is nuance to this, of course. Seeing the Barbara Hepworth exhibit at the Tate Britain, the (possible? probable?) reasons for my emotional response clicked into place when I read that a lot of her more abstract work was in response to or in dialogue with her feelings of being cradled by landscape, and particularly by the Lake District and by Cornwall; all of a sudden it was obvious to me that the sense of home-and-safety-and-familiarity I get off those sculptures is, in fact, the same sense of awe and belonging and recognition I get staring out to sea or feeling dwarfed on valley floors or what-have-you.

That was followed up by another visit to the Tate Britain, one day I wound up in the right area of London with some time to kill, where what I'd intended to do was poke my nose into some of the public galleries. I saw War Damaged Musical Instruments advertised on the website and ignored it -- and then stopped dead in the middle of the hall it occupied, the moment I got there, and spent twenty minutes sat there crying.

One of the things I've been gently sad about for quite a long time is that I'm a classically-trained musician who is mostly very, very bad at listening to classical music unless it's something I've played or am preparing to play, such that I'm listening as a technical study. (I think I've talked before about mostly relating to music as either a technical study or a vehicle for lyrics, but if not I can give it a go.) I'm starting to think it might be time to have another go.

[Linkspam] Monday, August 22

Aug. 22nd, 2016 07:49 pm
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[personal profile] tim
[CW: rape] I Anonymously Reported My Rape for the Anonymous Attention, by Nicole Silverberg for Reductress (2016-08-17). See, you can write humor that deals with rape and that's actually funny.

The Blood-bag: Co-narcissists and Narcissists in Tech, by Marlena Compton and Valerie Aurora (2016-08-22). On people who enable narcissists (i.e. most people who work in the tech industry.) The "blood bag" metaphor is so good.

How To Make a Real Commitment to Diversity, by Dr. Chanda Prescod-Weinstein (2016-08-17). The description of professors who give lip service to diversity in their programs but refuse to take the slightest risk to encourage it (or even to, you know, discipline predatory people) is so familiar.

“You Do Not Exist To Be Used”: Dismantling Ideas of Productivity in Life Purpose, by Gillian Giles for The Body Is Not an Apology (2016-08-17). "You do not exist to be used."

Shameless plug: buy a "San Fran Trans Co" shirt from my friend's collective!

What It's Like to Have 'High-Functioning' Anxiety, by Sarah Schuster for The Mighty (2016-06-27). In general I don't find "high-functioning"/"low-functioning" typologies to be useful, and I don't find everything in this article rings true for me, but some of it does.

Meeting the Free Speech Crusaders Who Want to End Political Correctness, by Sam Kriss for Vice (2016-08-17). This line is brilliant, about why Internet trolls love citing the notion of "debate": "It's not hard to see why: only in a formal debate do you have to give stupid and boring ideas a hearing they don't deserve."

The Troubling Trendiness Of Poverty Appropriation, by July Westhale for The Establishment (2015-11-23). "It’s likely, from where I sit, that this back-to-nature and boxed-up simplicity is not being marketed to people like me, who come from simplicity and heightened knowledge of poverty, but to people who have not wanted for creature comforts. For them to try on, glamorize, identify with. "

I, Racist by John Metta (2015-07-06). "But here is the irony, here’s the thing that all the angry Black people know, and no calmly debating White people want to admit: The entire discussion of race in America centers around the protection of White feelings."

Activism, Language, and Differences of Opinion, by Julia Serano (2016-07-19) -- links to some of Serano's greatest hits re: language, politics, and social justice.

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Aug. 22nd, 2016 07:24 pm
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[personal profile] rialian's tortoiseshell cat Maeve is giving me dietary advice: she thinks I should eat more chicken, and eat it in front of the cat. Oh, and also I should definitely tear the skin into little pieces and drop it on the floor.


Aug. 22nd, 2016 08:23 am
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Thankfully, I don't think anything's actually fractured from my fall down the stairs. (Did not bother going to have xrays done, because even if I had fractured my tailbone, there isn't much they can do about it except prescribe painkillers and tell you to ice it, and I can't accept painkillers from anybody but my primary prescriber and I'm already doing the ice thing, so.) Still hurts like fuckery, but I have plenty of painkillers and I've finally figured out a way to lie in bed that doesn't either a) make it hurt worse or b) make everything from my waist to my knees tense up, so.

Insult to injury: period cramps. NOW IT HURTS FRONT AND BACK, ARGH.

oh look, it's monday again

Aug. 22nd, 2016 08:22 am
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Every week, let's celebrate ourselves, to start the week right. Tell me what you're proud of. Tell me what you accomplished last week, something -- at least one thing -- that you can turn around and point at and say: I did this. Me. It was tough, but I did it, and I did it well, and I am proud of it, and it makes me feel good to see what I accomplished. Could be anything -- something you made, something you did, something you got through. Just take a minute and celebrate yourself. Either here, or in your journal, but somewhere.

(And if you feel uncomfortable doing this in public, I've set this entry to screen any anonymous comments, so if you want privacy, comment anonymously and I won't unscreen it. Also: yes, by all means, cheer each other on when you see something you want to give props to!)

PT pain homework

Aug. 21st, 2016 11:04 pm
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I have PT homework that involves learning about some pain research.

Why Things Hurt - Lorimer Moseley (14 min Tedx Talk)
Understanding Pain in less than 5 minutes (whiteboard by PainAustraila)

Read section one of "Explain Pain" by David Butler and Lorimer Moseley (done)

What I struggle with here is a) the feeling of being talked down to, and b) Feeling like being told that pain is your fault. When in reality we don't actually know that much about it from a scientific perspective.
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  1. Why did you sign up for Dreamwidth? I was not in the room where it first happened, but I was in the room where it continued to happen, after [staff profile] denise and [staff profile] mark announced Hypothetical Journal. Therefore I was so there. [identity profile] azurelunatic.livejournal.com is userid 50, although I waited a little longer before actually creating my permanent journal, in case something needed doing, testing-wise.

  2. Why did you choose your journal name? There was a punk band name generator on mp3.com back in 1997-ish. There were a number of silly names that I wrote down, but this was the one that magnetized me. It compelled me, even though I was hesitant to commit for a few years.

  3. Do you crosspost? Why or why not? "Somebody That I Used To Know" is my song for LiveJournal. "I don't want to live that way." (Yes. I do have to treat them like a stranger.) I do not crosspost, but I did set up a syndicated feed for the public entries there, for the ease of my friends who still live there.

  4. What do you do online when you're not on DW? Reading fanfiction, email, Twitter, IRC, ICB, various other forms of instant message. Sometimes clicky-games. Writing, though that can be offline as well. Work, too. Many of my previous jobs have been heavily computer, if not 100% online.

  5. How about when you're not on the computer? Housework, spending time with family and friends, reading books, the portions of work which are not computer-enabled. Errands. The odd walk.

  6. What do you wish people who read your journal knew about you? I'm fairly social for an introvert, but at the end of the day that's who I am. This means layers and layers of self-protection against exposure to too many people.

  7. What is your favorite community on Dreamwidth? Lately it's been [community profile] awesomeers, actually. A daily-ish reminder that I am still doing things, even when they seem small.

  8. What community do you wish was more active? I miss the regular screaming in [community profile] capslock_dreamwidth.

  9. Are there two people on your reading list that you think should meet? I was just running an encircling meme! [personal profile] sithjawa and [personal profile] silveradept should meet, though.

  10. Tell me about your default icon. My default icon shifts like the Aurora Borealis in the solar winds. Right now it's the Bastard's Prayer, from Lois McMaster Bujold's Five Gods universe, and it goes like this: "And the Bastard grant us, in our direst need, the smallest gifts: the nail of the horseshoe, the pin of the axle, the feather at the pivot point, the pebble at the mountain's peak, the kiss in despair, the one right word. In darkness, understanding." As soon as I met the Bastard, I knew that I was one of Theirs. They are the god of the out-of-season and weird, and while Bujold defaults to "Him", I feel rather strongly that the Bastard's gender cannot be encompassed by normal measure.

  11. What features do you think Dreamwidth should have that it doesn't currently? This is a difficult one for me too, because when I think of one it goes into [site community profile] dw_suggestions. More work on the API and image hosting would be awesome of course!

  12. What do you consider the five most "telling" interests from the list on your profile?

    • the bullhorn of viola swamp: This is the magical item from Hogwarts which I would pull out of the Sorting Hat.

    • center for talented youth: Nerd Camp, which I adored. This probably says a lot about my childhood.

    • fishmumming the unfishmummable: While I wouldn't claim to have a "maternal instinct" as such, at some point I became the most likely grown-up in the room. Unless [personal profile] synecdochic is in the room, at which point I revert to being the one most likely to cause an item to be added to the local equivalent of Skippy's List.

    • magick: extra k and all.

    • [unicode goes here]: I wouldn't be me if I didn't test systems that I'm trying to use by also trying to break them. (Hold my flower.) I also have an enthusiastically frilly and/or sentimental side which is well-represented by the odd flower.

  13. Do you have any unique interests on your user profile? What are they? How'd they get there? I've got a bunch. They mostly got there as the result of bizarre injokes and references, some of which I have already forgotten.

  14. Did you have a gateway fandom? Still in it? Why or why not? Is there a community for it on DW? It was, technically, Star Trek. The animated series. As novelized by Alan Dean Foster. Or perhaps it was Pern. Dragonsong got me hooked on science fiction and fantasy. Star Trek introduced me to other people who liked the same things I did. Slightly different gateways. There are various Star Trek-related communities about. I haven't sought after Pern-based community, though I hear there are excellent angry feminist rants available in other parts of the internet. And I do love me some angry feminist ranting.

  15. What's your current obsession? What about it captures your imagination? I don't believe I have a fannish obsession at the moment. Generally, though, the common themes when I dive deep into something tends to be that there are a lot of things to be discovered and delighted over. ... Or yelled about. I've had projects at work which qualified as obsessions where there was more yelling than delight. Still a lot of things to discover. So, infinite discovery with strong emotion, perhaps?

  16. What are you glad you did but haven't really had a chance to post about? I ... did not walk into any stationary objects on the night of June 23rd??? I mean ... the most recent thing that I am delighted with has been the removal of my murderous uterus, but I've had the chance to post about that. So ... *hands*

  17. How many people on your reading list do you know IRL? I stopped counting about 25% through the list and had already hit 30-ish, just with the people I have met at least once in person that I could think of, not including the people I have never met in person but who have become a part of my life. A lot.

  18. What don't you talk about here, either because it's too personal or because you don't have the energy? It turns out that with an appropriate and sufficiently tight filter, I will talk about a lot of things on Dreamwidth. But there are a lot of things I won't talk about in public. Other people's business, mainly.

  19. Any questions from the audience? Do feel free!

  20. Yes, but what are your thoughts on yaoi? The format isn't my thing, but being queer means that m/m romance is My People, even though one might argue that people who look like me are not fully represented in it.

  21. What's your favorite thing about Dreamwidth? I'm going to say what I said elsewhere: the conferences. I feel that some of the loveliest and luckiest moments in my recent life have been at conferences where People From Dreamwidth were about.

More chewy links

Aug. 20th, 2016 08:47 pm
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Less stress, more productivity: why working fewer hours is better for you and your employer by Itamar Turner-Trauring. This is specifically about programming, but I imagine it might apply to other problem-solving jobs as well. When I was working 25-30 hours/week at a programming job, I was told I was at least as productive as most of the full-time programmers. I would not have been able to tolerate the job physically or emotionally full-time, so it worked out well for everyone.

After gentrification: America's whitest big city? Sure, but a thriving black community, too. by Beth Nakamura. A great followup to an article I posted earlier - let's support the Black community Portland does have.

BlackPDX.com linked from the previous article, Black-owned businesses in Portland. A great place to browse for local businesses to support.

10 Badass Disabled Women You Should Know About by Carrie.
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[personal profile] kaberett
Wheelchair physics -- deliberately designed to be generally accessible and written by a physicist in collaboration with a wheelchair user. Links onward to a more in-depth PDF, which is probably something to read after I've slept...
kaberett: a patch of sunlight on the carpet, shaped like a slightly wonky heart (light hearted)
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... because I have just made P read it, and then we stayed up til 1am talking about it, and I haven't talked about it here yet because Too Many Feelings, which I will now attempt to sketch.

(Spoilers within!)

Read more... )

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Aug. 20th, 2016 06:08 am
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Guess who went to go walk down the stairs, put her foot down in a pile of cat vomit and had it slide out from under her, and fell down an entire half-flight of stairs on her tailbone last night? Go on, guess.

Tailbone's hella bruised (may be fractured), left elbow is skinned like a motherfucker, and I wrenched my right shoulder so badly I think I may have torn some of the muscles in it. (Also, I was covered in cat vomit, sigh.) And I was already sick with some kind of viral thing, which had just started settling in my chest, so now every time I cough there's a shooting pain through my tailbone.

I'm not having a good week, sigh.
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I lost my Kindle on the way home from Montreal earlier this week. I had a Kindle 4, and looking briefly at lists of features, the more recent models don't look like improvements. In particular, I want the e-ink black-and-white display; I like the buttons for turning pages (recent models seem to all be touchscreens); and I like how small and therefore lightweight it is.

They're not making these anymore, but Amazon has links for several people and/or companies that have used models to sell. Before I take my chances there, I figure it's worth asking whether anyone I know has a Kindle 4 sitting around that they'd like to sell.

Pain hits

Aug. 18th, 2016 06:48 pm
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Pain kicking in big time, ankles, knees mostly. I am definitely glad I stayed moving very gently in the pool and didn't get vigorous or go any longer than 30 min.

Anyway pain and I will lie still, do some cbd stuff, and put on ice packs.

I still feel invigorated on some level, and happy.

Hello, friends. I am here.

Aug. 18th, 2016 06:09 pm
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[personal profile] amberite
Please pardon the long silence.

I wish I had come sooner, but wishing and regrets only delay me further. So here I am, without further ado.

When you have an autistic/ADHD brain, with fiddly frontal lobes and tetchy dopamine regulation, flow psychology becomes ludicrously, absurdly important to the exercise of free will, as do patterns of feedback and reward.

I can lift hand-weights until I get bored and have modest gains at most, but recently I swam in the ocean again, just two days of paddling against waves, and can still see the difference in my upper arms. Dynamic resistance, a balance of support and hindrance in motion. I can only push through the immediate burn of exertion when there is something equal to it within me and behind me to push with.

For a while that wasn't there. More recently, just this year, I've had the impetus but not the environment. The understanding that I need to swim again, literally and metaphorically, has been present, but I also need currents to push against. Forces that pull at me and call me into motion.

And the ones I've had access to recently have ranged from suboptimal to downright toxic, which is, I guess, what you get when the Reward Machine is run by the Advertising Machine these days, and has tuned its mechanism to extract will and money from our behavior very finely indeed.

I've had difficulty finishing books, in the last few years - something I'd been doing without trouble for my entire life before. (That too is coming back.)

I blame brain chemistry and burnout, but also, the online environments I've been in have provided the wrong kind of flow; tiny bites of erudition, instantaneous response. Dynamism, turbulance, but almost no resistance.

I came to those environments because my wrists were giving me trouble (they still are, but if I avoid rapid messaging, I at least have the physical stamina now to write a screenful of text) and stayed because my cognition and mental pacing recalibrated to match, and I couldn't find an exit point, a place where it made more sense in the immediate to return to...

...this, to thinking out loud with genuine structure. Missives complete within themselves, instead of just random scraps. A space into which determination and identity can unfold.

It seemed so difficult, because the things that were easy were also stealing from me.

So a few days ago I reconnected with old friends in person, and we agreed, an accountability pact, to return together here, because this is where there's a living architecture that gives us space to be ourselves and escape the cycle, and we've all known this for a while (but it's so hard, when you're being stolen from, and everyone else is being stolen from, and...) and here I am.

It feels better already.

Let us Make something once more.

Links that make sense

Aug. 18th, 2016 12:36 pm
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Individual skeletons and gender by marina
Very cool detailed post by a current student of forensic anthropology. No you can't identify an individual skeleton's gender by the shape of the pelvis or length of the leg bones. I've been thinking, "Yes, but..." about this, in the context of Tim's comments on my pelvis article. I finally pinned down that yes, an individual person with any pelvis can be any gender, but there are statistical patterns. In the aggregate, men tend to have longer legs and narrower pelvises than women. I care about this because anatomy illustrations almost always show a narrow pelvis without even discussing how pelvises vary, and I don't want to contribute to that erasure.
via [personal profile] tim

Lament of the Twelve Sisters: A Tisha b’Av Story by Rabbi Jill Hammer
I love Jewish stories that focus on women. I had never heard "With each of the sons of Jacob was born a twin sister. —Rashi"
On Tisha b’Av twelve ancestor-sisters gather to weep. On other days it is only the One-who-Mourns who weeps over the sorrows of the world, but on this day, the day the Temple was destroyed, they all gather on the Mount of Olives to remember the razing of Jerusalem and the suffering of exiles all over the world.

The 7 Jobs Capitalism Asks of All of Us by Talia Cooper
This piece makes so much sense to me. It speaks to the ways I don't fit into corporate jobs, and the ways I haven't fit into typical relationships. I like that it has 7 forms of positive resistance as well.

Study: Catholic Hospitals ‘Dump’ Abortion Patients, Often Refuse Referrals by Nicole Knight Shine
I didn't even go looking for this, it just popped up in a Shakesville news post shortly after I posted (locked) about feeling unsafe having health insurance through an overtly Catholic company.

Pods and Pod Mapping Worksheet from the Bay Area Transformative Justice Collective, "Building Transformative Justice Responses to Child Sexual Abuse"
This is much cooler than the title sounds.
Your pod is made up of the people that you would call on if violence, harm or abuse happened to you; or the people that you would call on if you wanted support in taking accountability for violence, harm or abuse that you’ve done; or if you witnessed violence or if someone you care about was being violent or being abused.


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